Poet's Pit

The winter she was waiting for never came... She wanted to feel the crisps and shivers it would bring and the feeling of cold and calm She always imagined how it would sooth her, how the cold breezes would tickle her ears She wanted to shrug and she wanted to cuddle But the winter she was waiting for never came... The heat burning her skin stayed forever and she kept blazing with a hope A hope that someday winter would show up to stop the cruelty of summer She wanted to heal and she wanted to be at peace But the summer never ended and winter never came... Even when the winter never showed up she still wanted to feel it at least once "Here I come to the heaven of winter," she said "burn my body or bury just once and for all" She wanted to escape as she'd waited too long And the winter she was waiting for never came...

The world is bright and joyous and dreamy The lights are shining and everything's holy You see the smiles and sparkles in eyes You want to smile and your face tries You hear the crackers and the laughters You too try to laugh till it shatters You smile, you laugh and you shine You make it look all sweet and fine! In your heart you still feel dark And the ghosts of betrayal still bark You hide the pain and show them your beauty To not let those tears escape is your duty And still somehow a drop tickles down You too lose the patience's crown  You see the darkness beneath the light And again the heart fills with fright What all things can you do now? You need to hide it all, but how? You simply wipe those tears and walk tall You pretend to smile, fooling all That's the life, that's the  truest kind of essence That's how you they see your  shiny presence So you tried, you loved and you lost Walk tall as you have survived at last!

 I'm just scared to breath and live again I truly don't want all the grief and pain The weight of disappointments and fear Makes me question what to hold dear! How come the life collapsed like that? How come it became all sad and flat? Where did I go wrong or was I always? Why am I always mistaken and life pays? I just want to stay here, at the rock bottom Away from the world, lost and forgotten Yet, my heart still shivers and flutters It wants to shed all shadows and covers Why do I still breath and live everyday? Why do I believe Sun may shine someday? Should I just lay or should I move on? After all what is gone is forever gone! The only thing that's not gone is my heart I must therefore, give it a bright, new start!