Poet's Pit

The winter she was waiting for never came... She wanted to feel the crisps and shivers it would bring and the feeling of cold and calm She always imagined how it would sooth her, how the cold breezes would tickle her ears She wanted to shrug and she wanted to cuddle But the winter she was waiting for never came... The heat burning her skin stayed forever and she kept blazing with a hope A hope that someday winter would show up to stop the cruelty of summer She wanted to heal and she wanted to be at peace But the summer never ended and winter never came... Even when the winter never showed up she still wanted to feel it at least once "Here I come to the heaven of winter," she said "burn my body or bury just once and for all" She wanted to escape as she'd waited too long And the winter she was waiting for never came...

The world is bright and joyous and dreamy The lights are shining and everything's holy You see the smiles and sparkles in eyes You want to smile and your face tries You hear the crackers and the laughters You too try to laugh till it shatters You smile, you laugh and you shine You make it look all sweet and fine! In your heart you still feel dark And the ghosts of betrayal still bark You hide the pain and show them your beauty To not let those tears escape is your duty And still somehow a drop tickles down You too lose the patience's crown  You see the darkness beneath the light And again the heart fills with fright What all things can you do now? You need to hide it all, but how? You simply wipe those tears and walk tall You pretend to smile, fooling all That's the life, that's the  truest kind of essence That's how you they see your  shiny presence So you tried, you loved and you lost Walk tall as you have survived at last!

 I'm just scared to breath and live again I truly don't want all the grief and pain The weight of disappointments and fear Makes me question what to hold dear! How come the life collapsed like that? How come it became all sad and flat? Where did I go wrong or was I always? Why am I always mistaken and life pays? I just want to stay here, at the rock bottom Away from the world, lost and forgotten Yet, my heart still shivers and flutters It wants to shed all shadows and covers Why do I still breath and live everyday? Why do I believe Sun may shine someday? Should I just lay or should I move on? After all what is gone is forever gone! The only thing that's not gone is my heart I must therefore, give it a bright, new start!

  She turned around just to see what she had lost And there she stood today at what huge cost? The hand on her back disappeared as she moved ahead Wonder if it would have stayed, if she had stayed? The security of herd strangely went on missing She questioned herself what is she even chasing? The love in love's eyes lost as she dared to look above Was it right to stop her chase for the sake of that love? She lost a few pals at the corner of the future Why losing felt like her one and only nature? Now she felt like losing her sanity and her mind Should she still chase her dreams and grind? She believed she should, as she is already lost Now she has got nothing left just to exhaust She shall look ahead and she shall chase her dreams Or else the sacrifices would just mean wasted streams What is lost is lost now and gone is too far gone Now let's keep the chase till the success's dawn!

As I walked through this darkness Pitch black, cold and complete silence I found the person I've been looking for A friend, a lover, lost somewhere too far! These roads so painful, dim, dull yet scary Gifted me with someone to show my real glory I found my true wind, my true soulmate After all these tough times worth the wait Was he a prince? Was he the hero? Was he there to diminish all my sorrow? Was he a person or just an illusion To show me the charm and dreams and vision? It was 'Me' all this time and travels It was 'Me' at all the lows and levels At the darkest point I met the power And it was my own and everywhere I just needed to look at the soul Not of the prince and not of the whole The soul that belonged to me all the way To shoo away darkness, I was the light, I was the ray!

These eyes are tired Tired of the turmoil you've put them through Tired of the judgemental strangers and crew They've weeped enough over the long lost lover They've cried all night hearing the cursing shower They've seen what you could never soberly imagine The dreams of stars and moons and sun and sunshine But they're tired now and gone too For you've made them fatigued and so  They don't wanna open and seen the world again As they've already been through that chaos and pain They're never gonna get here the peace and dreams of tranquil So let them go and shut forever as the heaves wait for them still

I asked the clouds where they were going What was the goal they were chasing? Why were they weeping over people so ungrateful? And why were they pouring over cities so dreadful? "Who made you do it?" I shouted It echoed and came back as I doubted They kept on moving without even looking Some stayed back by my constant mocking They whispered to me while dripping slowly "We keep on walking as it's Holy!" "It's how God has made us to function Who are you, little human, to question?" "Some lives are made for others and they are meant to be lived Not everyone can be king and it is to be believed" "Not everyone can have a purpose and that's for sure This truth is bitter and has no cure!" Why was I surprised to hear the simple fact? Isn't this life we live our's to act? Why do we seek answers when we can't bear? Why do truths always seem unfair? The passing clouds taught me a lesson You may or may not be the one chosen ...