Poet's Pit

  Flashy lights and smoke encircling What a great life, oh so enchanting Cups overflowing with liquor of riches Clicking bottles, screaming bitches I walked with them and fake laughed Dragged my first puff and I coughed Settling for the cheapest beverage I listened how my life's just average The constant, nagging need to fit in Has already broken me from within Everything's fun and games on crack Until my inner demons scream back I avoid the entrapments to avoid me My vulnerability is not for world to see I'll drink fancy liquors slow and dull Pretending my glass is always full

Days run into nights and I lay here Clothed body with my naked soul Still watching your surprised stare Stuck in our memories, what a fool Writing poetry every other night Pouring my heart on blank sheets Searing words, sharp and bright Drawing a broken heart's beats My girls now tired of delusional stories Reading a new poetic mess each day But I can't stop writing our glories About charm and, your mannered way Running out of new words now Yet staining papers, spilling ink Ending teary eyes everyday, how? Asking myself if you ever think Feeling childish and futile emotions They warned me, "Don't you fall!" But I ignored all their red cautions Now I stay awake, waiting for a call "You deserve better," she reinforced Screaming I said, "But he is the one" Lover's delusions left her concerned How can I convey, I love him a tonne? I beg the moon and all the shiny stars Bring back the night he was but mine Skies reply, "Dear, he was never y

  Summer nights, winds weird and quiet  Should've known our time just wasn't right Just couldn't see you leaving peacefully  Wish I could've let you go on more gracefully Scream yes or say you don't feel the same Don't want to play this cruel lovers' game You can walk away just because I'm a mess But forgive my impatience with your calmness Promise I'll play and follow your every rule I'll play the one who needs to act the fool Of course, I'll wait here for you forevermore  And I'll never dare to shut my heart's door Hearing your footsteps I'll again let you in This is a lovers' game, I'll always let you win Some rules might break as I mend broken fate It's okay if you can't love me, just never hate Written on 10/03/2024

  Our song started playing on the speaker As I laid there naked in bed of a stranger Your words playing in mind with the music "You're only made for casual flings, chick" I took you literally, bent my mind quickly Now in a hostile bed, looking half sparkly Mended my wings broken by your wind Now flying high in my sky, paying no heed But when "Perfect" played as I moaned I realized, I ain't this, what you'd groaned Your words brought me to a stranger's room Dewy lights, losing myself, oh, perpetual doom Panting on his shoulder, I wiped your memory I cried out loud as you've made me temporary It wasn't my nature to just casually hook up I was simple enough to care when I stayed up You turned me from shiny glass to rough sands Blood of my innocence still fresh on your hands

  I am dancing alone in the middle of the room Invisible to your eyes, growing out of bloom All the spotlight's on me, darkness all around Invisible much? My feet moving on cold ground I keep dancing all night only for you like a doll For your perpetual ignorant bliss, I took a toll I scream and cry and dance for your attention You keep gazing away, questioning my intention I keep choosing you but you always choose them Attraction and power play; Love is but a game! I have always been a spare, it feels like ages now trapped forever in your ballroom, I ask myself how? 'Coz I keep dancing with hope, even in ignorance I keep on forgiving; questioning my own tolerance Now my feet bleed, hands drop and eyes weep my head spins like a wheel and I am falling deep I hope you at least remember in memory flashes my unconditional dancing here, as I fly in ashes?

Now when I stitch my own wounds, I realize how deep I’ve cut you When I hear my own screaming sounds, I get what you went through   When I met you again, and when our palms, bodies, and lips touched again My body convoluted at each contact and my mind rushed with pain   I wanted to cry in your arms and let it all out, let my heart melt My heart wanted to scream, what it went through, how it felt   But there I was, present only with my exterior self, hollow and void I shut my heart off with a switch and only let our bodies collide   You were right, he was right, I am a stable person with a heart of stone My soul is empty, my heart missing; I am not love but only flesh and bone   I will keep my guard up if we meet again and flow into the passion I can’t be a wife, a love, or a home to you when I am but a shattered mansion