Poet's Pit

September Seventeen and we were celebrating Chuckling together, and barefoot dancing We were drifted so far away But we promised there to stay Humming together the same song Now I wonder what went wrong? I tore all the letters written for you My dreams shattered & nightmares came true How can something so beautiful turn so ugly? Why could I never be yours truly? September Seventeen and it was your Birthday My wishes, our song and the sweet Play I fell in love with the boy in the white shirt Never knew it would turn back and hurt And it is September Seventeen again I've moved on but there is still the pain But I feel safe to know you are far Can't deal again with the emotional war So Happy Birthday to my Long-lost Lover I'm so glad our trouble is almost Over!

There are thunderstorms out my window Can you hear them or is it just hollow? I can see the lightening and hear the storm My world's become cold; is your's still warm? My heart sinks at every sound, every light Can you feel it or is it still sunny and bright? The winds are shattering my window glasses I can see the sharp, shining, falling pieces 3 AM and the chase of light and darkness Every light brings the noise that makes me breathless I try not to connect this storm to you And yet here I am asking only you! 'Cause you never see the storms on my door When I tell you, you just leave me crying on floor And so every storm brings your presence And every song sings with your essense

 I walked on the track with you The air was cold But somethin' 'bout it felt like own somehow And I, left my scarf there at Civil class And you've still got it on your table even now Oh, your sweet disposition And my wide-eyed gaze We're acting in the play, getting lost backstage Tamarind leaves falling down like pieces into place And I can picture it after all these days And I know it's long gone, and that magic's not here no more And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all 'Cause there we are again on that little college street You almost fell face first 'cause you were looking over me Wind in my hair, I was there I remember it all too well Photo album in your phone Your cheeks were turning red You used to be a little kid with glasses in a soldier costume And you are telling stories 'bout your mother and team You told me 'bout your fam thinking your future was me And you were tossing me the career keys "Fuck the Patriarchy" keych...

I was listening to "Back to December" And guess who did I remember  It was you in all your glory It was us and our love story I remembered how I broke your heart So cruel with piercing hard dart We cried all night, December Twenty I could have tried more and done plenty But I am so selfish and so cruel And I always end everything like a fool I am not as brave in love as Juliet Can't run and let go of the brilliant  I was too proud to let my guard down And wait for you to come to my town But today I listened to "Back to December" And you are the only face I remember  I have fallen for stupid reasons  Followed boys for all four seasons  But the love that we always shared Never came back to me to be spared Had you not hurt me just enough? Didn't I just hurt you so rough? Why do your eyes still shine like that Every time you look at me when we chat I am not at all good for you and me I am so bad and it just kills me Don't look at me like we'll ever fix I...

  Clinging onto the life with weak threads Watching the darkness that everywhere spreads How far can I survive with threads like these? Scared to breathe and afraid of underlying seas Seas that are deep and wild and horribly angry Thousands of lives they eat and still hungry And the threads in my hands are breaking quickly  My struggle is making the waves smile meekly  They are ready to engulf my body and soul  Touching eagerly to take in the whole How far should I try to survive? How long should I even thrive? The winds are dangling my fragile frame And I am trying to stick with no shame How far should I stick here though? Waiting for the threads to all go? One big thunder will strike suddenly And I'll fall in the sea abruptly I'll drown deep inside struggling for breath Just to hug my oldest friend, the death!

The winter she was waiting for never came... She wanted to feel the crisps and shivers it would bring and the feeling of cold and calm She always imagined how it would sooth her, how the cold breezes would tickle her ears She wanted to shrug and she wanted to cuddle But the winter she was waiting for never came... The heat burning her skin stayed forever and she kept blazing with a hope A hope that someday winter would show up to stop the cruelty of summer She wanted to heal and she wanted to be at peace But the summer never ended and winter never came... Even when the winter never showed up she still wanted to feel it at least once "Here I come to the heaven of winter," she said "burn my body or bury just once and for all" She wanted to escape as she'd waited too long And the winter she was waiting for never came...

The world is bright and joyous and dreamy The lights are shining and everything's holy You see the smiles and sparkles in eyes You want to smile and your face tries You hear the crackers and the laughters You too try to laugh till it shatters You smile, you laugh and you shine You make it look all sweet and fine! In your heart you still feel dark And the ghosts of betrayal still bark You hide the pain and show them your beauty To not let those tears escape is your duty And still somehow a drop tickles down You too lose the patience's crown  You see the darkness beneath the light And again the heart fills with fright What all things can you do now? You need to hide it all, but how? You simply wipe those tears and walk tall You pretend to smile, fooling all That's the life, that's the  truest kind of essence That's how you they see your  shiny presence So you tried, you loved and you lost Walk tall as you have survived at last!